Tired of Starting Over?

It's really hard when things don't turn out like we planned. Kind of like this whole weight loss journey that I've been on. It's a journey that I thought would be coming to end but feels never ending. 

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What do you do when going all in doesn't feel like it's enough? 

I'm pressing in to God to learn what I'm supposed to learn that I haven't yet. My head knows I should press in and trust God, but my emotions are saying, "why is this so hard?" 

I've thought about giving up many times, but I won't. Why? Because I wouldn't be giving up on a weight loss goal, I would be giving up on trusting that God's grace is enough. My focus on a long run is how far I've come, instead of on how far I have to go. I'm taking this same approach to weight loss. I'm leaner, faster and stronger than I was 3 months ago. Each day I'm growing more focused and more disciplined. There was a time in my life when I would have quit by now, but by God's grace, His faithfulness I haven't. 

I know it's not just me. How do you keep working towards goals that always feel just out of your reach?

Today's Promise:

Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise. Heb 10:23(NLT)

Today's Workout:

Ran 3mi @ 9:55/mi pace ---> I'm getting faster!

Confession: Thank you, Lord for peace in my heart and the endurance to keep going.

Kendra

To Overcome the fear of starting: Go ALL In!

I've been the leader of a running group for about 6 months. I can't tell you how many times being apart of this group has gotten me up out of my warm bed and out the door. One weekend a few months back a new runner showed up to run with us. She shared with me it's always been her desire to be a runner. She had silently watched our posts in our Facebook group and longed to join us on a run.

Fear of the unknown had kept her from coming out week after week. Not knowing what to expect-would she end up walking alone? What would the women in the group think of her if she showed up for a running group and walked the entire time?
Fear circled through her mind.

But it wasn't until she made a decision that everything changed. It's the decision we all have to make.

The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.

Cliche? I know, but still true.
This quote captures a fear many of us share-the fear of starting. We're afraid to make the first of many steps we know we will have to take. Why?

In certain areas of your life when you begin to think about where you are now and where you want to be, it's overwhelming to imagine what it will take to reach your destination.

What do we do instead?

We make excuses.
We procrastinate and we hope that the desire will go away.
We fear starting something that we aren't even sure we can finish. Counting the cost or determining if we can finish before we start is scriptural,

After all, who wants to pour their heart and soul into something and not see the results from it? So what do we do, we make half-hearted attempts and when we don't see the results we want, we say "See. I knew this wouldn't work. I knew it wouldn't happen for me."

The only way to truly succeed is to go all in. Don't hold back. Go after it with all of your heart, because all of your heart is what it will take. Fully commit with the expectation that regardless of the outcome, you will be better.

Courage gets us started. It gets us to the starting line but commitment carries us through to the end. I've seen it time and time again not just in the lives of others but in my own life. I've been afraid to start, but once I get going I also start to fear the commitment.

Consider your own life. What area of your life have you been afraid to go all in and the outcome has been what you feared?

Phenomenal Woman

Phenomenal Woman

Dr. Maya Angelou has always been one of my favorite writers. Her writing is a gift. She is a gift and so are you.

Lately, I've been thinking about how grateful I am for the privilege of being a woman.
This poem by Dr. Maya Angelou says it best. Every human being on the planet has a story. The world would not be the same without you. To all the phenomenal women.

To the Good Life!
Kendra

Blaze a Trail

pi·o·neer [pahy-uh-neer].
noun
one who is first or among the earliest in any field of inquiry, enterprise, or progress

verb
to lead the way for (a group); guide

Most people look at you like you're crazy when you say you're going to run a half marathon. I get it, because that's how I look at people who sign up for full marathons.  Running makes me feel strong- mentally, physically and spiritually. I enjoy the fact that it requires a level of endurance that most of us don't believe we are capable of sustaining.  Marathon running requires a deeper level of commitment, discipline, than most of us are used to.

I started training for a half marathon 2 weeks ago. Prior to the training plan, I was blessed to find a running partner who would run with me at least twice a week, consistently. Running with her caused me to push my body beyond what was comfortable and it's helped make me a better runner in the process. I've started to recognize that many times I thought I was pushing myself, but when I would stop, I realized I still had so much more left to give.

For my training, I run with a running group called Black Girls Run! (I am the ambassador for the Phoenix metro area.) It's hard to fully understand the value of running with a group until you've done it. Knowing that other people are depending on you, that you share common goals and being apart of a sisterhood are just some of the reasons it means so much to me to run with a group .

My running buddies - Our 1st group run @ Tempe Town Lake in Tempe, AZ 

On our first run out as a group, one of the ladies that I knew would keep us on a great pace was asked to be the lead runner for us. She accepted the role and we were off. Because she had no experience with running that particular path, there were several times where either I or one of the other ladies had to yell out to her to keep her on the right path. As we were running I realized this must be what it must be like to pioneer anything. When you are the first to do it, you're going to make mistakes. You're going to go in directions that will make it take longer than it would have if you were already familiar with it. You're going to have to risk the possibility of failure-that because you're out front other people will have a front row seat to your mistakes. But are you going to let that stop you? Or are you going to look at the fact that because you keep going you end of up blazing a trail for others to follow?

I realize that some of the things that I've been called to do, may not have a clear path that I can follow, because I'm the one who's supposed to blaze the trail. With the Holy Spirit as my guide, I'm supposed to tread over fear, discouragement and complacency on this path to the rich and satisfying life that God has promised us in John 10:10. By doing so, my husband and I, both, leave a path for generations that will come after us to follow.

What about you? How are you blazing a trail in your own life? What are you called to pioneer for the generations after you?

To the disciplined life!
Kendra

Cooking with Nyah - Oven Roasted Fingerling potatoes

I am recommitting myself to updating this blog regularly. I want to have a document of my journey to a more disciplined life.

Disciplined living isn't just about the things you "can't" or "shouldn't" do, but it's also about making room for your priorities. I value relationships. My most important relationships are with the man I married and the little people we are raising everyday. Helping my children develop their passions is one good way for me to not only learn discipline but help impart it into them, as well.  My oldest daughter has a passion for food. The last few weeks we've been preparing at least one new dish a week together.  The first week in August she wanted to make homemade french fries.  I believe in taking foods you love, including comfort foods and putting a healthy spin on them. Here's our version of homemade french fries.

Oven Roasted Fingerling Potatoes

We bought a bag of fingerling potatoes. These are really unique looking potatoes.

Step 1: Nyah doesn't like the skin on the potatoes. She peeled them and sliced them like french fries.

Purple potatoes? Cool!

 Step 2: Add your fave seasonings. We used garlic powder (lots), lemon pepper seasoning, sea salt and dried thyme.

Step 3: Toss in olive oil. Make sure you it covers all of the potato.  It's going to be cooking in the oven.

Step 4: Spread out on a cookie sheet or broiler pan. Bake in a preheated oven at 375 degrees until tender. Then broil until they are crispy brown.

DELICIOUSSSSS!!!

Deliciousness!

Step 5: *My fave step* Watch everyone in the family enjoy this new version of french fries.

Our entire family enjoyed eating these. We didn't follow any recipe. We just tried what we thought would taste good to us. They are a new favorite for us.

To the Good Life!
Kendra

Day 18: I want to win!

I can't believe it's been 2 weeks since my last post.  I won't wait that long again before I update.  I have so much to share but I won't put it all in this one post. 

I have fully immersed myself in this journey to a more disciplined lifestyle.  I am committed to winning.  I have the plan that I need, the accountability I need and the help I need.  I am praying daily about the choices I will have to make each day.  I've been down this road and I know I can not do it without God's help.


I'm focusing on the benefits of a more disciplined life rather than the work that's involved.  In tomorrow's post, I will share the plan I will follow for the next  347 days.

Are you already pretty disciplined? What tips/wisdom would you share with me?

Day 4: I want the rewards but not the work.

I am 4 days in to living a more disciplined life and so far so good.

I believe accountability is really what's going to help me see my goals through to the end.  Therefore, I talked it over with my hubby and we're going to sign up with a budget coach. According to Dave Ramsey, personal finance is 20% head knowledge and 80% behavior.  I agree 100%.  I know what I should be doing.  I know how to budget, crunch numbers, but my actions aren't lining up with what I know.  I'm ready to humble myself in every area of my life.

Another goal that's important to me has to do with my eating habits and exercise.  I am reading Lysa Terkeurst's book, Made to Crave.  If you haven't read it, you should.  It has already ministered to me.  It's amazing to me how similar our life experiences can be.  During my devotional time this morning, I feel like my  eyes were opened to a simple truth. Best-selling authors reveal their journeys with God through their books.  They had to live what they wrote about.  There was no shortcuts.

Reality check: I want the rewards but not the work.  

This was hard to realize about myself, but I know it to be true.  I have been talking about the weight I want (I'm going) to lose for years now, but I've never saw it through until the end because what was being required of me felt like too much to ask.

As I'm moving forward in this journey, I'm praying the Lord will help me endure to the end.